Perspective.

Have you ever seen those pictures in the "fun and games" section of magazines that show something really zoomed in, and you try to guess what the bigger picture is. I always got those wrong, it would be a zoomed in picture of a basketball, and i would think it was the Sahara Desert. Life is all about perspective, showing the bigger picture. I tend to forget that. I was told yesterday that i couldn't play soccer for 4 weeks. Almost half of the season. I have mono, which makes my spleen swell up and if someone where to hit me, it could burst then i'd die. So i guess it's not a bad idea to stay out of contact sports like the doctor said. But i was and still am, sort of am devastated. Soccer is my passion. To have my passion taken away from me, is hard. It's more then hard, it's awful. Honestly i'm not one to be lazy. Lazyness is what the doctor ordered. It's been a day, and i feel like a caged animal.That's why i'm doing this. this whole blogging thing. I doubt anyone will follow me, but i really don't care. I just want to be honest to someone, and be able to complain somewhere, which is what i will mostly be doing here, simply for the fact i hate complainers so my complaining will be done in secret (; . Anyways, perspective. It's a hard task to master, but with practice, it's coming. When the doctor sat there and explained to me how long i would be out, i was brought to tears. Then i started to think more rationally, it's only 4 weeks, and i can condition, just not play. I began to think about one of my friends, Sara. She was a runner, and a good one at that, not to mention one of the sweetest, most loving girls you will ever meet. Sara was diagnosed with M.E. a chronic fatigue syndrome, and she can't run anymore. This is a thing FOR LIFE not a measly 4 weeks. Her blog is actually amazing, you get to know her, her struggles, and her AMAZING perspective. whenieverfeelbetter.blogspot.com . She actually makes me feel silly for being upset over mono. She's strong, something i wish i could be more of some times. I'm working on seeing the bigger picture, having a better perspective, and just getting healthier with each day so i can be back on the field. A little perspective, a little smile and a lot of Tylenol goes a long way.
xoxo em.