Watching.

Something i've gotten used to in the past week. Watching. Watching TV, watching practice, watching countless Redbox movies, and now watching games. I can't do a whole lot with mono, so i sit, and watch. Last night was the worst thing i've watched yet. The Bellbrook game. Bellbrook is good, we tied them twice last year. This season i had a personal goal to beat them.. Twice. That goal was put off to the side when i realized i would be missing out on the first game. Bellbrook has always been our rivals. I watched the team play one of the best first halves ever, passing flawlessly and every ones hearts was in the game. It was still scoreless on both ends at half time. I wish i could say that we scored at the beginning of the second half, kept the lead and won in an amazing victory over Bellbrook. I wish i could say the team's spirits are high as we go into another game against a rival tonight. But i can't. We lost, 2-0. I don't know what happened, but we couldn't quite hold it together. Sitting watching is one of the hardest things i've ever had to do. Watching as the team crumbles after the first game, watching the team being pushed around by the ruthless Bellbrook girls. It's a helpless feeling. Now, i have to go watch another game tonight. My hopes are high. But honestly my hopes don't do a whole lot right now.
xoxo em.